Today I found out my mom might have mono. And I’m on the phone with Dee! I decorated my planner and OMG it’s sweet!

Ugh, I want to go back to camp but I don’t think I can because my mother has stupid mono. I love her to death but ugh I wish she wasn’t sick 😦

[Dee’s handwriting]

Hello! My name is Isaiah and I’m GAY! I want a ukelele super bad. I LOVE Roho 8) I want a mustache XD

[taped below is a piece of paper with my phone number on it, the same one that Dee used to record my number on the last day of summer camp]

Dee and I made out for the first time on Saturday ❤ It was amazing!! It’s cold out and I miss him so so much and the weather is just as grey as my present heart. Haley has a new boyfriend and has changed a lot. Sam AND Holly AND Clara are all going to opposite ends of the country, so I don’t know what the hell I’m going to do Spring Break. All I want is Dee! Everything reminds me of him. Like I just looked at a box of kleenex and got all sad because one time I had kleenex in his sweatshirt pocket. It’s ridiculous. I just want to punch someone until they feel as bad as I do. And I want to be inspired and write some miraculous poem, but nothing is happening. And I’m cold. And it’s blizzarding in Spring. Ugh. I hate Duluth.

I just scribbled out a bunch of stuff about Henry, and that’s cuz it wasn’t true that I loved him. But future Rosalie, if anything ever happens with you guys, dont you fucking dare scribble this stuff out. Because it’s 100% true. I LOVE DEE! And someday, my name is gonna be Rosalie Alice [redacted]! I’m gonna see if he can speak on the phone. Okay, guess not. Sigh. Anyways, I think I’m depressed. I just want to be with him every second for the rest of my life.

It’s been a while. I wish I had room to explain everything 🙂

Okay, let’s start with November. Well me and Dee and Haley and Ryan and Sara had the BEST night ever. Me and Haley and Dee and Ryan and Elisa went to Green mill, which was hilar. After, I can’t remember… but we all went to Twilight (hated it) then went to the hotel so they could check in. Later that night, we went to Pizza Luce, and then went in the Village building (got kicked out by the cops XD) and then went down by the big Christmas tree and hung out. We found an empty whiskey bottle that smelled like booze. Grody! Then we just goofed around for a while. We went back to the hotel, snuck out, and crashed Canal Park! It was so fun because half the UMD students were there (drunk!) so we could yell at them and fuck around. It was so fun! Theeeen, after a while of being stupid teenagers, Dee and I went to the Lighthouse and sat right on the edge of the pier. Then after talking he held my hands and kissed me under the stars. Holy god!!! Talk about amazing! Most unforgettable night ever.

I love him so much its mind blowing. And it’s been almost six months since we were official 🙂 and omg eight months since we met! Whoah!

Time flies, really slowly.

If that made sense, would it make sense??

Dee thinks I’m pretty. I’m on the phone with that little bitch right now! JK he is so far from a little bitch!! I love him!! He loves me! We love each other!!

P.s. I got my first period the day after writing this!! (Feb. 12, 2009)

Well, I’m in English Class and I have finished all my work. Glarg. I wish I didn’t have to go to school. I hate everything about it. EVERYTHING. I wish that it was this time tomorrow, cuz I wanna go to Bessemer RIGHT NOW. I want to be with my friends.

Ugh, I’m in math class right now. I don’t want to go to school. I want to be with Dee and my best friends on the beach or in Canal Park forever. But anyways, I’m so so sooo excited for Friday! My mom is gonna drive me and Clara halfway to Bessemer, and we’re gonna meet Haley’s parents there! And, I also saw Clara and her fam right outside my school in their car on the way to Marshall! It was awesome. Lol I’m so so excited. Then, the weekend after that, Dee and Haley are BOTH going to be up!! Yay! I hope that we can all go to Canal Park together. That would be super duper fun. I can show him where we hung on the bridge and got caught! I miss him so much. Glarg. I also miss Haley like ultimate crazy! And Clara, for that matter! But holyyyy I’m so FRICKEN excited for friday. I’ve never been to Haley’s house in Bessemer, just the one on Park Point.

Today I woke up at 6:40 to go to Valley Fair with Dee. First we went to a shooting range for like 5 hours which wasn’t that bad, actually. And after that, we went to drive to Valley fair. We wanted to save money so we waited an hour to get the discount. Matt was being a buttface and didn’t want to go on any rides, so Elisa took him to “start small”. Okay. Whatever. So me and Dee go to Steel Venom and he held out his hand and I grabbed it. Right after I stepped off, I knew something was wrong. I hadn’t eaten at all that day (couldn’t stomach a thing), and I hadn’t drank enough water. AND I hadn’t slept enough AND I was going on rides. Not a good combination. So I get sick for the first time at Valley Fair when I’m with DEE. Peachy.

After a while of drinking what seemed like 7 tons of water I felt better. We finally caught up with Matt and Elisa on the Excalibur and stood with them right after going on the best round of Wild Thing of. My. life. So I’m just standing there, my gross self, and Dee just comes right out and says, “since we love eachother, should we be boyfriend and girlfriend?” I was still sick and would’ve hugged him or said something cute but instead, I smiled and nodded. Yeah. I nodded. FUCKING NODDED! Oh well. He’s my boyfriend now, and I’m his girlfriend. Nothing better after all I have been through with this kid. I’m in love with life again! My last fortune cookie said, “The next full moon will be an enchanting evening”. It sure was.

Best night of my summer. I will keep it with me forever! ❤

Oh my goodness. Today, Nikki, Katie, Dee and I went to The Dark Night. I was so nervous. He put his hand upside down on the drink holder and the went to the bathroom. And Katie leaned over and said “OMG Dee wants to hold your hand so bad!” I said, “how do you know”? She told me about his hand on the arm of the seat and he came back. I opened my hand right by the arm rest. Holy crap it took him fifteen fricken minutes just to notice but he grabbed my hand and held it for like, an hour! It. Was. Amazing. Yeah. Then after seeing my new favorite movie, Dee came back over to Nicole’s house. Her little brothers were literally jumping onto him from high up places! It was hilarious. We just sort of hung out. It was so much fun! Then, when Sam came to pick him up, he was backing out of Nicole’s driveway, and his car slid off of it and almost tipped the car!!

Tonight is youth group, but I’m not very excited. I’m really sad because I think Nikki’s mom thinks I’m a slut. Just because Nicole and Katie can’t date though. She probably doesn’t, well maybe she does… Nikki hasn’t said anything about it, and that makes me a little nervous.

Today is my third full day in Hastings. On Sunday, at the grad party, I got to hang out with Dee almost the whole time. I really wanted to go on the trampoline but I was wearing my Pink shorts, so it would have been easy for my undies to show. Yeah so that sucked. Lmao I kept dumping water down Dee’s back and it was super funny! Omg so after we were gonna go to “The Dark Night” but yeah then we found out we couldn’t go and I was super pissed off. But then later on I found out it was ok that I didn’t go because I got super super sick. I think it was because I had dairy on an empty stomach. Glarg.