I’m such a dork. Okay so I haven’t left the house in two days except to go to Zen House and now I’m sitting in my house listening to Selena Gomez.
I’ve had better moments. I think later tonight I’m going to try and hang out with David and Jack. I don’t really have anything better to do. Ever since Daniel left I’ve been so lonely. I’ve only seen friends a few times. I’m looking forward to school starting so that I have something to fill up my time. I feel so empty-minded. Just empty in every way.
I wish I could say that it was the best summer yet, but it really wasn’t. I was upset more often than not and I lost my best friend/boyfriend. I’d say last summer was the best. I was so happy. I really miss last fall. Despite the big decisions and new things, I would love to relive those moments in Chester Bowl. I’m trying so hard to keep a level head and be optimistic. But every day has new ordeals. I don’t know. It just really fucking sucks. I don’t know what else to say about it.
Although, there is nothing like sitting at the Grace enjoying a cappuccino and scone on a warm summer evening. I can see my friends from where I’m sitting and it’s funny because they don’t know that I’m here yet. It really is a beautiful moment. Here come my friends