Just got done tanning. I also re-read all the things I wrote when I was developing feelings for Daniel, and I couldn’t be happier with my decision. I could care less that he is moving away, every single second of loving him is worth any amount of sadness. I really don’t know if I have ever adored someone so much, ever. He is one of the most beautiful and intelligent people in my life right now. Actually, ever. That’s why I’m beginning to realize something. I’m (even sort of recently so) in love with him. It’s all still so fresh. And for me to throw something that makes me so happy away doesn’t make sense. I’ve always kind of assumed that we would break up when he left. To say the least, I’m reconsidering.
On a different note, today is the second day of [redacted].
Born in 1996
Over the coming months, I'll be publishing several journal entries a day in chronological order. I began journaling in 2007, when I was eleven years old. Even then I wrote as though I were archiving my life, collecting details about my world. As I grew older, journaling became more of a description of my emotional world.
I am an aspiring creative nonfiction writer who is producing very little since graduating college this Spring. But with this unusually thorough account of my entire adolescence, I feel as though I have been given a gift that has been under my nose this whole time.
This is a practice in forgiveness and vulnerability. It is also a way to laugh at myself.
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