What if from now on
I wrote my journal in
the form of poetry or something that looks
just like it? A novel
that sells well, concerns
sex and drugs and other things that teenagers love to read about?
New stuff that exists only
in the world of adults,
the horror of growing up masked by excitement
of something new, something better.
I think about sex a lot.
Not the way that boys think of it.
I think about oral sex, also.
I think of that the same way boys do