October 21, 2010

Today is the day that I got high for the first time! I’ve tried it before… but tonight was so intense, I honestly completely lost track of reality. I thought I was dreaming! I thought I was a feather, I felt like a tangerine!

I don’t really know if I want to do it again, because I have never felt so out of control, dependent, and vulnerable in my whole life. It was…. I can’t describe it.

Celeste took care of us, and by the end of the night she was crying. Her and Daniel were so upset that we smoked weed that I never want to do it again. Yay for new experiences though!

Dee is in town. Tomorrow is his birthday… I love him, but I don’t feel so connected to him anymore. Only time will tell. I’m a horrible girlfriend. Or maybe I’m just a wandering soul…



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