I was listening to Excuses by The Morning Benders and I thought to myself, if my car broke down while I was with Dee, just us, I’d laugh. And I realized that no matter what I’m doing, if we’re together, it’s ok. He makes me feel happy! What more do I need? We’re in love and we’re HAPPY. Things are so much more simple than I understand.
I reread my entries from Dee’s fuck-up. That broke my heart, he broke my heart. He has no idea what that put me through. Ah…. my night is ruined.
Born in 1996
Over the coming months, I'll be publishing several journal entries a day in chronological order. I began journaling in 2007, when I was eleven years old. Even then I wrote as though I were archiving my life, collecting details about my world. As I grew older, journaling became more of a description of my emotional world.
I am an aspiring creative nonfiction writer who is producing very little since graduating college this Spring. But with this unusually thorough account of my entire adolescence, I feel as though I have been given a gift that has been under my nose this whole time.
This is a practice in forgiveness and vulnerability. It is also a way to laugh at myself.
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