June 11, 2010

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I decided that I would abandon my feelings for Parker. I’m just (I was) setting myself up for disaster. Parker and I are getting to be better friends, I think. I like it that way. It’s gonna be so fun, Garrett, Parker and I are gonna sneak out. It’s gonna be great! Oh and Celeste and I are getting really close. It’s nice.

Isn’t it weird that I’ve been craving risk? This summer’s gonna be even more fun than the rest. Weed? Well maybe…

Although deep down I have this sickening feeling that I’m losing a part of myself. I’ve just felt so lost lately, spilling my heart over these pages. I’m leaning my trust on Youth Alive (camp), because I’m hoping that maybe will give me some room and inspiration to rebuild myself.

Call me crazy, but I think I’m going crazy. I guess I ought to go to sleep now.

Published by uuggla

Born in 1996 Over the coming months, I'll be publishing several journal entries a day in chronological order. I began journaling in 2007, when I was eleven years old. Even then I wrote as though I were archiving my life, collecting details about my world. As I grew older, journaling became more of a description of my emotional world. I am an aspiring creative nonfiction writer who is producing very little since graduating college this Spring. But with this unusually thorough account of my entire adolescence, I feel as though I have been given a gift that has been under my nose this whole time. This is a practice in forgiveness and vulnerability. It is also a way to laugh at myself.

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